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Old days and Henry Golde

Journal Entry: Tue May 13, 2008, 3:31 PM
  • Mood: Stumped
  • Listening to: Cheap Trick (My favorite CD)
  • Reading: A lot of books!!! Ragdolls is my main one now
  • Watching: TV
  • Eating: I want my stuffed grape leaves!
Yo!
I've been looking back at a few months ago when I was like in this endless pit of depression and nobody really reached out to me to help and every smile was fake and I was starving myself and crying every night and just kind of drifted through the day mindlessly and I just realized how stupid it all was.(That was a lot of ands) I mean being depressed about your life doesn't make it any better, and now when my life is even worse I can still look at the positive things in life however few there are. No clue what the heck hit me to make me all better but I'm glad I am!!!! I feel like the girl in that one book lol.

I just found out that depression can be inherited through your parents, did you know that? Which makes sense, I know where I kind of got it. And my brother is getting scarier. I am literally afraid to be in the same room as him because of what happened (Once again) last night.

Henry Golde talked to us today, he's a Holocaust survivor. I'm really into the holocaust, it's horrible that people could treat other people like that but it is also interesting. Maybe I'll research it when I grow up. I also just found out that my grandpa and his parents left Germany because of the Holocaust, and how they didn't think it was right. I think thats pretty darn cool actually, to leave when they thought something was wrong. My grandpa has a really neat story actually that I never knew actually!
I'm learning a lot lately about a lot of things, pretty coooool.

And recording people are cool. You click stuff and sound magically appears, what is cooler than that? And I want to see a performance in the PAC. I feel so alone being the only one in class that hasn't!

Camping kind of sucked, it rained the whole time, all of our stuff got wet and muddy and I was freezing all night. I did learn how to play Ghoul in the Graveyard though! No good pictures really because of rain duh.

ONLY 19 MORE DAYS OF SCHOOL! I am soo excited for it to be over.

So I am being so random and my throat/head hurt so I'm off to eat something and drink about a gallon of Sunny D O:

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

(Oh by the way I kind of gave up on that photography list, I'm sorry I couldn't do it *shamed* )

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~mex-penguingirl:iconmex-penguingirl: May 13, 2008, 3:43:13 PM
I'm glad that you at least see sense to life (x

Yeah, my mom was depressed a while back, when her brother was killed... years ago, though, before I was born, but I guess it can be inherited *nod*

As if I didn't have enough problems! xD
My family is full of hereditary problems and tendencies... I could potentially have: diabetes, high blood pressure, depression, a gall bladder problem, and a thyroid problem. And I already know I have serious problems with low blood sugar... how jolly, eh?! xD

... What about your brother? *feels lost and stupid and uninformed* Dx

I wish I knew a Holocaust survivor. But my dad's dad's folks left Lithuania during the Bolshevik revolution around WWI; anyone who worked closely with the czar was going to be killed, and he the czar's tailor :D And my dad's mom's folks left Germany, I think, before WW1 at all...

And obviously on my mum's side, they've been in Mexico since God knows when xD

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~Replayz:iconReplayz: May 13, 2008, 6:55:26 PM
I'm with Mexy. You keep hinting at your brother yet you never do say.

And sorry I guess I never tried reaching out to you o_o
I really thought I tried, but you pushed me away and I just kind of watched....from a safe distance
*ev5:iconev5: May 14, 2008, 6:42:20 AM
I'm kind of carefree and optimist, dunno if it's heritated but my mother always does a lot of moaning (it's funny, when I started to moan, she stopped me and told me that was not that bad and vice versa, most of the time I'm the one who stopped her =)).

Lol, I only got 1 more day at school. However, I cant be happy on Friday unless I pass the Visa interview :|.

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~Layla121:iconLayla121: May 14, 2008, 3:05:36 PM
*gasp* you gave UP?! on the LIST?! tsk tsk...

anyways, whats up w/ your brother? im really close to mine, and all he does is smile creepy!

I KNOW!!! I CAN'T WAIT TILL 6 FLAGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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~rockxxfantasy:iconrockxxfantasy: May 14, 2008, 4:13:25 PM
My mom was mostly depressed because my dad was terrible to her, and then when she divorced him she was all alone so yeah. Go depressed mothers!

Wow you got a lot of bad stuff there, I feel bad for you, how do you live with all that??? Yikess!

My brother is....messed up lets say. Scaryy.

Holocaust is interesting*nod nod* Thats pretty cool too though, Luthania is a fun name for a country dont you think?

*waves mexican flag*

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Amanda
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~rockxxfantasy:iconrockxxfantasy: May 14, 2008, 4:15:03 PM
I'm not allowed to say, the counsler dude I went to like forever ago said so and plus my parents blow it off as no big deal so I guess it isn't as bad as I'm thinking *shrug*

I dont know, it didn't really feel like anyone was trying but then again I was like too miserable to notice so I'm sure you were! Sorry D:

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Amanda
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~rockxxfantasy:iconrockxxfantasy: May 14, 2008, 4:15:56 PM
Hey now no fair, only one more?? We have TOO MANY more days. I want summer already!
I'm sure you'll pass the interview, your gonna do great :hug:

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Amanda
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~rockxxfantasy:iconrockxxfantasy: May 14, 2008, 4:17:21 PM
Yes I did lol. I couldn't stand it no mores!!! I didn't want to follow it anymore D: You better keep up with it though dearie!

My brother just has issues...bleh. I like your brother, he's funny. "You know sleep is cool" xD

ME EITHER!

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Amanda
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~mex-penguingirl:iconmex-penguingirl: May 14, 2008, 5:15:59 PM
lol I just live. I mean... I may hate the person I am, but life's too good to give up on. So I'll just make do with the shitty person that is Steph Matthiesen, because you only have one chance at life, whoooo :D

Yeah I really find the Holocaust super interesting. And really, I feel it's sort of a wake-up call. We see so much violence every single day, all over the media and our language and everything. But when you realize how absolutely terrible the Holocaust was... *shudder* I will never ever forget that video I saw in the Holocaust Museum, it's branded me for life.

Lithuania, love, not Luthania xD
But yeah it's a very spiffy country. I REALLY want to visit the Hill of Crosses... Google pictures of it, it's amazing!

*sings Mexican anthem loudly*

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There is a castle on a cloud.